Post by hermes on Dec 10, 2009 2:58:17 GMT -5
My life sucks... I don't really talk to anyone, I haven't posted it on the boards in general, because I don't want to bother anyone. I don't want to return to being the self projecting asshole I was before, thinking forcing everyone else to conform to my perspective will solve my problems. Little more narrow minded take than who I was before, yes, but that about sums it up. I pretty much got banned last time, because I was caught up in insisting that Lee and Steph were perfect for eachother. Crazy eh?
Now, my personal problems obviously aren't your problems. For the most part, we only all talk to each other about role play, or the problems of the board or lack of activity or whatever.
Choobeh is detatched. I used to consider him a good friend, but he's phased out of caring, and started to walk the path of a self obsessed alchoholic college student. When I talk to him, he's either working, or planning a night out drinking... Honestly he has a better score than most people, and my opinion of drinking shouldn't be what colors him. Its his indifference to, well, everything that bugs me.
He has wisdom, but the application seems to have become absent.
So I'm here to tell you guys, that I don't know what to do. I'm, not really like Bulbs, but I've sort of lost my passion here. With so much going on, I find writing somehow...shallow, pointless, meaningless. I'm not sure what to make of it anymore. No matter what I do, nothing feels right.
At the same time, I don't want to throw a temper tantrum, or feel a need to. I don't really feel frustrated, or angry. I'm not as sad as maybe I should be, and its hard to be hurt when you really have no expectations from anyone.
So honestly all I'm saying is, I really don't care anymore. This place... seems kind of stupid. But I'm not sure what to do about that either.
So what? Should I quit? I don't think any of you really liked my mains anyways. You guys want me to stick around, or do you not care?
And please, don't like to me. This place seems stupid... but somehow its still important. Weird. I don't want this place to be a lie, if I do stick around.
Now, my personal problems obviously aren't your problems. For the most part, we only all talk to each other about role play, or the problems of the board or lack of activity or whatever.
Choobeh is detatched. I used to consider him a good friend, but he's phased out of caring, and started to walk the path of a self obsessed alchoholic college student. When I talk to him, he's either working, or planning a night out drinking... Honestly he has a better score than most people, and my opinion of drinking shouldn't be what colors him. Its his indifference to, well, everything that bugs me.
He has wisdom, but the application seems to have become absent.
So I'm here to tell you guys, that I don't know what to do. I'm, not really like Bulbs, but I've sort of lost my passion here. With so much going on, I find writing somehow...shallow, pointless, meaningless. I'm not sure what to make of it anymore. No matter what I do, nothing feels right.
At the same time, I don't want to throw a temper tantrum, or feel a need to. I don't really feel frustrated, or angry. I'm not as sad as maybe I should be, and its hard to be hurt when you really have no expectations from anyone.
So honestly all I'm saying is, I really don't care anymore. This place... seems kind of stupid. But I'm not sure what to do about that either.
So what? Should I quit? I don't think any of you really liked my mains anyways. You guys want me to stick around, or do you not care?
And please, don't like to me. This place seems stupid... but somehow its still important. Weird. I don't want this place to be a lie, if I do stick around.