Post by Soulkeeper Julia on Aug 30, 2009 20:59:44 GMT -5
Well, hi Exodus. I've returned, at least for now. o:
I'll try for every weekend.
But recently, my godmother died, and it's been getting to me. She was such an amazing person.. On Friday there was a visitation, and her friends & family got together, looked at photos of her from the past (she was really pretty back in the day), and talked. On Saturday, we sort of prepared ourselves for the memorial, and today, we went to the church we used to go to.
We'd stopped going there ever since... I don't know, a handful of years ago? But we attended church service, and then there was an hour-long break where people could eat something and talk.
Then the memorial service started.
While the organ player was playing some songs, I just.. I burst into tears. I cried on and off throughout the rest of the ceremony. Sometimes the people speaking made the mood a little lighter by adding in something funny, but mostly, I was crying, or just being in a state of sadness.
I went through a lot of tissues.
It feels weird, not having her around anymore. Her death was so sudden..
I remember I was at a friend's house, and I stayed there until about 9, at which point my cell phone rang -- it was my mom. She said I should really be getting home. So, I walked home, opened the door, and was greeted with the virtually blank faces of my parents. Mom extended her arms to me as I walked in, and I almost walked past her because I thought she had just wanted me to be home. But then I thought, "Wait a minute -- Mom never does that when I get home.. Something's up...." So I hugged her, and shut the door, and my dad told me the news.
I'm just.. really out of it right now. I'm about to start crying again, actually. You know when you get that strange lump in your throat, and then suddenly your eyes feel wet? Yeah, that's what's happening right now.
Help.. Please tell me how I can deal with this. She was extremely close to me and my family. Hell, it was like she WAS our family! She was simply amazing, she was like.. like an angel on Earth. <3
I miss her.. a lot.. Do you have any advice on how I can accept what happened?
I mean, I almost still can't believe it. I'm freaking serious.
I need help.. I don't want to have a sudden breakdown in the middle of a class. :'c
But recently, my godmother died, and it's been getting to me. She was such an amazing person.. On Friday there was a visitation, and her friends & family got together, looked at photos of her from the past (she was really pretty back in the day), and talked. On Saturday, we sort of prepared ourselves for the memorial, and today, we went to the church we used to go to.
We'd stopped going there ever since... I don't know, a handful of years ago? But we attended church service, and then there was an hour-long break where people could eat something and talk.
Then the memorial service started.
While the organ player was playing some songs, I just.. I burst into tears. I cried on and off throughout the rest of the ceremony. Sometimes the people speaking made the mood a little lighter by adding in something funny, but mostly, I was crying, or just being in a state of sadness.
It feels weird, not having her around anymore. Her death was so sudden..
I remember I was at a friend's house, and I stayed there until about 9, at which point my cell phone rang -- it was my mom. She said I should really be getting home. So, I walked home, opened the door, and was greeted with the virtually blank faces of my parents. Mom extended her arms to me as I walked in, and I almost walked past her because I thought she had just wanted me to be home. But then I thought, "Wait a minute -- Mom never does that when I get home.. Something's up...." So I hugged her, and shut the door, and my dad told me the news.
I'm just.. really out of it right now. I'm about to start crying again, actually. You know when you get that strange lump in your throat, and then suddenly your eyes feel wet? Yeah, that's what's happening right now.
Help.. Please tell me how I can deal with this. She was extremely close to me and my family. Hell, it was like she WAS our family! She was simply amazing, she was like.. like an angel on Earth. <3
I miss her.. a lot.. Do you have any advice on how I can accept what happened?
I mean, I almost still can't believe it. I'm freaking serious.
I need help.. I don't want to have a sudden breakdown in the middle of a class. :'c